The Very Hungry Ghost

False Refuge

Deep in trance

Tapping and tapping

Marshaling this magical brain

To win a game

That just draws me

Further and further out of this world

Eyes tight, senses numb

I feel dumb

Puzzle

Every time I close my eyes

A puzzle appears in my mind

Created and solved before

I realize it’s happening

How quickly neurons

Can wire together.

How powerful addiction is

Digging

Digging

Deeper and deeper

To find peace

Forgetting that peace

Is already here

Waiting for me to drop my shovel

And jump in

Getting it Right

Every day

Every action

Every word

Every thought

Trying to get it right

Needing the best

Fearing the worst

Body tensed

Mind racing

Always chasing

Wind in the branches

Waves on the rocks

A leopard floating through the sky

A leaf falling onto my lap

Bringing me home

Father of Dragons

A fierce dragon

Trapped inside my body

Your cries pierce me from the depths

With a longing long forgotten

In a pause we meet

I hate you for

Stealing my sleep

Sabotaging my relationships

Sinking my dreams

But now I see

You were always my baby

Crying for help

Crying for my love

My acceptance

Here I am

Unravel

Who am I?

The tickle of an ant

The flap of a crow

Memories and stories

Rehearsing and doubt

They say this net has holes

As wide as the universe

But I feel myself tightening again

Held firmly in its grip

All I can do is relax

Surrender into it like a hammock

Strings are coming loose

One day soon

I may fall to the ground

One with the Earth

Part of everything

Forgiveness

I have hurt people

Deeply

Maybe it’s time

To take a look at shame

At all the ways I should be

All the things I should do

Bring them to my lips

And let the wind

Blow them away

Reality?

Breathing in the deep blue sky

As I ask: Who am I?

Soaking in the Sun’s heat,

Am I more than a hunk of meat?

Marveling at the spider’s web

What do I make of the flow and ebb

Of sound and sensation

Thoughts and information

The story of me

That always seems to be

Reality?

Hearing Aid

All these years

What I 

Judged 

As laziness

Criticized 

As procrastination

Suffered 

As failure

Was just my body telling me

It needed to relax