Cocooned on Vashon

Already Broken

Woven in blue, green, and purple

A treasure from La Isla Bonita

My hammock begins to unravel.

My chest clenches

Unwilling to let go

My mind races

Unwilling to let go

My heart sinks

At the beauty that will fade

But I remember

That it was always impermanent

That it is already broken

That every moment I lay in it

Is a gift from the universe

To love and let go

Old Soul

They call me an old soul

But I’d rather be a new one

Fresh off the vine

Entranced by every ray of light

Marveling at the blue sea

The green ivy

The brown deer

Nudging me with her nose

Life meeting life

In all its mystery

And wonder

Green Peel

This tree is dying

Its leaves drying and dropping

One by one to cover the ground

Its bark peeling

Revealing smooth green limbs

A brilliant body hidden

From the world its whole healthy life

The beauty of impermanence

Broken

Believing it broken

I tried to fix it

Giving up

We became whole

Howl

I melt my swords into hearts

I raise my gates to let

The wolves come howl with the sheep

I end the war within myself

And in surrender

Taste freedom

Untangling Nots

Not this body

Not this brain

Not even this heart

I am aliveness itself

Vast and steady

Begin Again

One day I will wake

And there will be no one

Left to impress

Even myself

Nothing left to achieve

Even world peace

I will forget everything

I should do

And discover what I want to do

What will fill my body with joy

And my heart with love

May that day be today

What Happens

What happens if you stop believing

That the world has fucked you again

If you stop seeing problems

And mistakes

And could-have-beens

What happens if you stop forgetting

How utterly miraculous it is

That we can dance

And love

And see the stars

And be the stars

There is a child in all of us

Full of wonder

Full of play

Hiding in a closet

Quietly

Waiting to be found

If you turn off all your devices

Cancel all your plans

Eat your to-do list

And listen to your body

You can hear him breathing

Friend or Foe

What is this inside me

That won’t let go?

How did I learn

To fear the world so?

Is the world friendly?

My body says no

But my mind says yes

And my heart’s learning too

That in loving connection

The ice melts to dew

I am the awareness that

Can soak it all in

Every scent, sound and sight

Every bug on my skin

The path to Freedom

Lies through my chin

Awakening

Cocooned 

Beneath my Bodhi tree

Dangling

Transforming

Becoming free

Wholly Broken

I woke up today injured

But for the first time

In many months

There was no need to heal

I am already whole

MMMM

Leaning in

To 

My Massive Mossy Maple

I let go

And am held in presence

Cold Opening

The cold sea

Breaks open my chest

I can hardly breathe

But my heart holds on

Lifting the corners of pain

Into the softness of a smile

Floating on the waves

Embracing our big blue world

Surrender

Shivering from the water

I surrender to the heat

Tornado in my mind

I surrender to the breeze

Pressure in my skull

I surrender to the sea

Life coursing through my body

I surrender to me.

Waking Up

A sudden tightness

A familiar strain

In my sinuses and spine

Or is it long lost parts

Of this body

Waking up and saying hello

Bringing their pain 

To be loved at last

Welcome in this awareness

Rising Love

The day has come

To put aside all stories

Of what I need to do

All plans of how to help

All calculations of what’s best

The day has come

To embrace the life around me

The life inside me

The life that sparks me

To love each being

As my own precious child

Adopting them into my family

Broadening my heart

To fill the universe

Saying Yes

Yes to wind that chills my bones

Yes to the shivers that follow

Yes to my nose

Yes to my back

Yes to the thought of my friend Zack

In my nerves

In my blood

In my breath

In my brain

It's only resistance that makes it pain

Yes to the fear

Yes to the doubt

Yes to the pee

That wants to go out

Rosalie

We never met

But I love you

My sister

The tears you have released

From my eyes

Crying for your pain

And mine

For the bravery of our bodies

For the fear of our inner children

Hiding in the closet and backseat

For the magical fairies

And love

Illuminating our way home